Just when I thought everything was getting better, it fell apart again. After my first trimester everything was much better. But I wasn't that lucky haha.. I had the CTS that makes me rest for whole week, and last week I was spotting again for the whole week now I'm taking rest.
My boss scolded me so many times because of my sloppy work, and he is really unhappy about me taking sick leaves again.
At first I felt terrible and trying so hard to make it better. I think I got stressed out for one point of time worrying what he would think of me. Maybe he thought I made things up just to take sick leaves and laze around at home. But then again who likes this worrisome feeling if something is wrong with your baby?? Not everyone has an easy pregnancy and I definitely am not making things up. I kept on asking why does it have to be so difficult for me....Everyone else can have an easy one, why can't I?
But after I thought it thru, it is not how easy or not ur pregnancy is.. It is how u deal with it.. If people are misunderstanding my situation, I know I wasn't wrong and I know I did the right thing. It is better to be misunderstood now than regret it later. Sometimes when u think the worst thing is yet to come... the best thing emerges. I just have to keep my faith, be brave, and be careless for the time being. I know I made some mistakes but I'll try my best to fix it.
No comments:
Post a Comment